Staying optimistic is exhausting venting feel like bitching like I'm whining circle vicious and I'm caught in it often not gone be effect more like the causer know that order tall but the measure not how low you get but how far you can fall from they can stay lost if I lost em everything I say is dual like exhaust level headed nigga mind swimming augmented dilemmas pinned up aggression identity like the water speaking of it striving to stay above it poverty like a mindstaste still tryna recover trying not to become it thought of it tie my stomach leaving the way you come wit nothing somebody love me want another and another my sister and my brother the nigga that don't know me from joe blow I could touch em wit a song I remind em they never really alone Im going against convention correctly I'm never wrong from intention you might just lack a dimension up in yo soul you cutting my dope shit wit yo energy stepping on it and twisting selling that for yo benefit bought control of opinion don't want me as no enemy cuz you gone have to finish me shit gone go to infinity like a fifty beef I hold a grudge like holding my Hennessy I never blacked out I wanna cash out they say don't fall for that capped out nigga maxed out where my ballers at all I ever needed was some paper nigga all facts can't deny it that would mean to give it all back Take my hand never be alone long as I'm with you You send my ego crashing down What if I told you I know the way but it go against everything that you know I can see you infatuated with pain you don't love it then why you won't let it go I know people identify with they word don't take my advice so personal you might think I'm being too harsh but this what it sound like when I'm alone Never needed much but in the same breathe I a nigga wanted everything be contempt think abundantly you could never be lonely never be hungry be worthless or not deserving of some kind of peace I'm protecting mine by any means I be where the vibes at this ain't for yo mind doe dis shit for yo mindset this a differenct dialect this ain't no get back lyrical pissing contest even though i rhyme best beside that 4 past 440 am a baby born into poverty from the ethers of infancy needed purpose feeling helpless invisible and that stream of consciousness that I adopted kept me further from the surface outta balance I know we go from challenge i know the place the ego take you to feel the validation the opposite of the soul mine dying of thirst rewind me back to 2009 I left the earth been blinded what could beat present time to lift the curse remind me to stop watching my life play in reverse like mine gotta be cursed find what i deserve alliances I deserted to shine painted a version of me in the worst light ironically so it serve they failure to make it seem like I'm why it didn't work father fuck em they gone be used or be useless the side of love we blind to in a true sense bend the rules for the homie and they gone play they self outta position this for the niggas that forgot the mission out necessity evolved to being self sufficient till I'm the only person i needed to see my vision What if I told you I know the way but it go against everything that you know I can see you infatuated with pain you don't love it then why you won't let it go I know people identify with they word don't take my advice so personal you might think I'm being too harsh but this what it sound like when I'm alone

I rather be around some love for the night then to lay up wit wit my dick in hand lusting over chicken heads puffin to the swisher stem medicine for the dizziness band aids over trauma my feet fidgetin don't leave me with my thoughts if you love me trust me shit a get ugly price tag on peace I'm watching numbers increase I'm careful around police they bussing across the street it's never nothing to eat it's poisonous but it's cheap if niggas would let me sleep this lady across the street she getting her ass beat it's teddy bears on the curb wit bottles of Hennessy that's how we say rip so put me around some l.o.v.e ima 6 ft 3 but feel I 6 feet deep or like I might as well be a second for myself please barter my well-being a martyr for the wealthy niggas tried to sell me half of the 7 days I needed to meditate focus and go create to me at a lower rate than the bills that I need to pay and mama wanted grand babies the way I'm living ma you geeking or you half crazy Before I do that shit I need to get myself together pray I dont black I need to get myself together She even hip the boy to afua never surpressing yo mental affluence maskin it wit masculine man enough to man it down but man enough to grab my dick I know we needed both at times I know we need to balance it fact is not my job to unpack shit fact is sometimes lyrics don't twin wit actions back then i roamed free and land in the mattress of any one that would have me magic the walls collapsing wit passion and then I would vanish tell you about the damge I caused ripping off the bandage blame it on sag habits cuz home is the fifth planet gift of gab but a curse when attention span got abandoned my pallet was too expansive but never forgot where home was at freedom in commitment sex drive can't thrive inside of no cul de sac you parked the boy cat so fuego don't even want a strap hope make a queen of our own to practice emotional maturation to soften my edges my regression to innocence I pinky swear to protect it my affinity infinite spread in every direction won't let em paint you no bitter bitch no you sweet like my beverage

I like being left alone but I hate feeling lonely cuz everybody bogus up the serotonin way I'm feelin f**k around punch the nearest homie but self destructive moments ain't my mojo protection from myself the reason I be flying solo and Zo the only one that feel the notion but I can't be unloading all my burdens on the homies they got they own woes I put a mute on my emotions they make it hard to focus Hard enough not to be not be broken soft enough to feel all my emotion implosive stocked up on the shelves boy don't talk about my feels you barking up the wrong tree I rather break the seal tonight flowing like a tall tee cipher days cooking up quarter ps like Paula Dean My worst nightmare waking up for I hold the dream a hopless romeo vocals freeze in the moments needed I hold my piece if I told my secrets they won't believe it I know the reason they broke agreements and woke the demon solo me o my only reason for being is weaving a sixteen for people that truly need it peace of mind high as giraffe pussy I'm reaching Now we like a universe apart feeling through the dark tunnel in my heart straight to sunshine take me to the start save me from my thoughts take me to the well for it run dry can you save me it's like the universe playing favorites You could only call somebody beautiful if you feel the same way if you could see in someone every flaw the way you look at people tell us who you are only make'em feel the way you feel inside you spreading love or going out yo way to kill the vibe? so maybe you been hurt a hundred million times it never healed so you pass it along touchdown Tom in yo second nature to clown on someone that's winning clouded by yo opinion and fiend for the reason you can look down from yo disposition cuz misery love attention this shit really may be a sickness n***as called you stupid all yo life till you start to believe it not for the sake of knowledge the knowledge you seeking cuz someone gotta play the fool and you'll be happy as it's not you internalizing them keys and locked yo self inside b ut not alone wit yo ego and yo pride y'all done so much time together y'all look alike and think alike to me at least it's clear to see when you pick a fight till you got what you was lookin for all along its not about you being right it's more about me being wrong about you but who know better than you anything you know for certain you don't never gotta prove

Look I swear to god im never swearing to god again  from my rainbow glockenspiel days I was raised in a crazy la famila  under age puffin haze in a bando  eyes glazed like a honeybun  free lunch and a chocolate milk  hard knock life we adopted it  then adapt graduate wit a doctorate  I'm the homonym of my mama nem  she a matriarch I'm a sovereign  prophet never profiting  fanatasize bout days I don't gotta swing a mop again  this ain't pressure to coal this lead to gold who better should know  this Santiago in a Honda cypher tryna find my Fatima  in a blinding light gotta time it right  see when you watch the clock it's on lean when you watch the pot it won't steam  can't listen wit ya mouth can't talk wit ya ears i walk through lines in between i need to breathe I need a break we passing green we conversate we kept the dream alive while awake shit startimg to make  sense by the day  Labors of love driving you crazy  Raised by the world my faygo baby  Making the most of what they gave me My how you've grown my faygo baby  This ain't bout no commas no this shit for yo common sense bandage on yo confidence where you learn to take a punch trauma that we self inflict no I've not been diagnosed maybe call it negligence mama tryna feed and clothe maybe I'm too sensitive 

So G H E T T O Dollar from yo TT Get yo sweet tea sent me to store tea tree on that 4C got you gleaming if you know keeping la Madrina on yo sneakers boy go get some hoes smell like arboretum you been chiefing think yo gg know this that synesthesia my two seater we was smoking dro back when we was packed up in that civic like some biscuit rolls we enroute to liquor stores beat on loop and spilling soul bitches say you different doe bitch I'm a vibe blame it on guwop nem traphouse 3 brought a k with me not for real but the boy had love from the killer in the Tahoe 95 drug dealers East side n***a so the hoes caught feelings south side n***as never did f**k with us I ain't with the business bet I know who shot the party up bet I don't know who got stomped out s**t is funny long as they ain't come with us long as s**t don't come to fisticuffs give the vibe immortality pray that bitch live and die with me rational and ratchet on the balance beam So G H E T T O So G H E T T O Faygo with tequila I'm gone need to use my pto bleeding through your speakers they was singing shit you need to know wash away your demons then go demon off in Kiki home screaming while I eat your soul know this s**t go deep as gold deep as deacon hold on grandma soul that Sunday evening flow speak in code s**t that only we would know swing my doe dance away your baggage in that basement s**t was therapy feeling oh so nearly free Bitch I'm a vibe twisting my fire give it a try your inhibitions invisible n***a that's mission accomplished sipping and key keying picking your mental and picking the lock dick on your mind simple as pie ripple in time kicking the **it till we wrinkled and washed n***a on god And who can love you like me I need you to know this is a celebration of where we came from if you know then you know if you don't listen close

A rare occasion when I make confessions facing rejection ain't my favorite let alone breaking it to no strangers on no instrumental paint the mental scene beauty queen move that needle my head and feet don't get the message how the closed mouth gone be fed she done left with someone else so now the pill you swallowing something must be wrong wit me swiss cheese confidences what women see intrinsically in n***as they respond to it and I feel like I never had it or I'm out of it Don't feel bad for me someone gotta play the fool And it get worse when you compare yo self to other n***as that can turn to jealousy not ashamed to tell you I been there myself to really think the feeling of not feeling good enough was slowly killing me and my dislike for envy turned me to my biggest enemy and thats me tryna hype up myself silly me You ain't got no bravado I'ma just bravado I'ma just bravado tell myself no before you get the chance bravado I'ma just bravado I'ma just tell myself no before you get the chance I think my sensitivity one day gone be the death of me I mean it be the simple things it may just be the way I think sometimes I cringe at memories a look could make us enemies wit me a vibe is everything and mine is fragile my ego tactile cuz I been cracked on the black child the one with the fat nose you n***as got jokes oh you mad now I needed a back bone now so fade to black now where can't nobody roast cuz everything thing you say gone be the butt of someone jokes the reason n***as think I'm strong and silent hardly both the reason why i bite my tongue the most felt like I knew what people thought of me before they even talked to me that's if they'd even talk to me rejection wasn't lost one me that's why I rap like it's Jesus bday I gave n***as a voice that that had shit they needed to say shit you might needed to hear shine when people giving you shade and be kind but shy away from no fade you see I wrote this shit in pen just so you won't erase it I learned this shit the hard way seem like the only way to learn to learn the difference between growing and changing both can save you only shit that can hurt you is true in a way Bravado n***as ain't bravado n***as ain't bravado n***as ain't laughing no more bravado n***as ain't bravado n***as ain't laughing no more

When I get that pill shoot like swish Everything hit no miss I cannot deal granted my wish Every n***a round me rich It's so unreal ghetto ass crib Everything need to be fixed Ain't had no meals can't get no bitch N***as ain't have no drip Had me in my feels when I get rich How I'm gone trust a bitch Need something real give her my kids everything more plus dick I'm tryna build Like corny rappers that be moving backwards In the hustle flashy but they so molasses undercover pass up on a pissing I'm too comfy half of these n***as asked to be kippa half of my attributes a be something actually back up off my dick muscle daffodils out the asphalt that blossom practicing perfect practice daily weekly monthly huh broke and bummy young and dumb wit promise even back inside my thun thun nuns granny water running all summer turned the backyard to water park keep the cold in shut the screen door I punch ya lights out you close it hard underrated under paid its understood that I'm the greatest overall motivation only dangerous under hatred that's the case wit most of y'all broke the frame of mind that came alive when 9 to 5 seem like the only option smoking dope in old apartments flowing hard in homie Honda only mantra roam and conquer slowly wandering lonely pondering low on option hope intoxicate life a bitch i know she ovulate fuck the op it's no cooperate 7th time not getting the time of day that implies I got the time to waste only words that I could find to say walk the line beside the 808 I've been through too much to play keep your head down out the way they gonna come to test your faith stay down my nigga stay down To my past I fly away leave my heart inside the gates on this road to find your faith stay down my nigga stay down i've been through what you can't see so trust me when I say I'm free keep that shit far away from me All I ask of you is please stay down my nigga stay down They say you can't tell the truth and keep being my friend I'm not doing this with you I don't wanna pretend like I really don't give a damn even though I want my revenge these hoes gone be death of me these niggas ain't my mans I'm with the extras ordinarily a nigga demeanor go west or east up on the spectrum deep down Midwest swing wit best of em like I'm from Texas needed direction needed affection stummy humming instrumental for breakfast call it obsession or call it a blessing the way I'm connecting the dots sure shot never need no props tried to break em even pulled out the stops I got my motivation from thots lil dumbass nigga lil bum ass nigga